And that's okay.

Whenever my friends have a bad day, I usually tell them that things happen for a reason and everything works out in the end. I think that's applicable to happiness too. We were created to experience joy. This life isn't supposed to be miserable. No matter how bad things seem, there is no problem that's too big to fix.  Maybe it's when you want to retreat into yourself that you most need to reach out to others. My friend and I have an analogy about this. (I love a good analogy) Everyone has a bucket of sand. When bad things happen, or when you are stressed or feel really sad, sand is added into your bucket. Have you ever tried to lift a big bucket or bag of sand? It's REALLY heavy. If your bucket starts filling up, it can seem impossible to carry yourself. People that care about you can help though. Sometimes they can take sand out of your bucket and make it lighter. Even if they can't take away the sand, they can help you carry your bucket. Personally, I have a hard time admitting I need help. I like to handle things myself. I don't like to be a burden. I have to be constantly reminded to let people help me carry my bucket.

Sadness is a trial, just like sickness, or famines, or taxes. It can be overwhelming and feel like it's swallowing you whole and it sucks hardcore, but it makes you stronger.  It does not mean you're ungrateful. It does not mean that you lack faith. It does not mean you're an attention seeker. It means you need love and people and sometimes you might even need help. Things will eventually get better. I promise.

Friends, thanks for helping me carry my bucket this summer.